On friday my role was made redundant. The company is going through a financial downturn, and several roles were identified as expendable, including my role. Folks, I sure wish that I had caught up with the layoffs casts before now!
One of the hardest things is that the layoff was one of those "4.55pm friday, here is the paperwork, clean out your desk" affairs (4 of us went). I didn't have any time to sort through my papers, hand over any unfinished work, brief people or even say goodbye to my staff.
I feel chewed up and spat out after more than 8 years. There were no thanks and although I was on the senior management executive, the Managing Director didn't take the time to see me. The manager being "groomed" to take over the company on his retirement walked past me without acknowledging me, even though I had worked closely with her on any number of projects and business issues over the years.
It is important to me to leave with a measure of grace. So I have spent the weekend writing goodbye emails to my staff and those I have worked with, thanking them and telling them how much I appreciated them and why.
My contact list is less than desirable and the resume is 18 months out of date. The bright side is that now I have to get my act together to find a new job, lots of Manager Tools words of wisdom are rising to the surface just when I need them :wink: And my resume is in the Manager Tools format so updating it isn't going to be a huge stretch (well I hope not).
Given that I was feeling so burnt out and let down, it is hard to remember anything that might take me forward. So I've started by gathering positive constructive feedback. I have asked several trusted former collegues to identify the 3 key competencies I displayed when working with them, and 3 key “qualities”. I also asked for 3 key areas that I could develop further. From this I’ll be able to update my resume and identify strengths and weaknesses.
In a gallows humour sort of way, the layoff is probably a good thing for me. I was bored out of my brain, but too de-motivated and de-moralised to do anything about it. At least now I am forced to collect my thoughts, work out what skills I have, what I am good at and start something new.
Wish me luck!