I received my performance review today. It was an "average" rating, which was lower than I expected. My director has been on this job for six months, but I believe he wasn't willing to fight to get me the rating I deserved.
Fair or not, this is rating a done deal. Nothing I can say or do at this point would change it. I accepted it in a professional manner, but I was open (but tactful) about the fact that I was disappointed.
I can't imagine that any good could come of further discussion on this topic with my manager, so I need to just get over it. I feel petty to even be this bothered about it since there really is nothing at stake this year.
Here is the problem --- I'm high D, high C.
My high C side says: Since bonuses and salary increases have been eliminated for last year and this year (company wide), this average rating has no short term impact on me at all, nor will it limit my chance of long term promotion. So... no harm, no foul. The only way this could hurt me is if I can't accept it gracefully.
My high D side says: This is an outrage! I went WAY above and beyond last year and he knows it. My manager either didn't have the influence or wasn't willing to fight to get me the rating that I earned.
Whether or not I'm right is completely irrelevant at this stage. I want to do what is effective so I don't get submarined again next year.
How the heck do I just get over it?