Well, after working harder than I ever have these past 2 years in my over 25 year long career in IT, I was fired recently for 'performance issues'. I am just beside myself in this and it will take some time to unravel the knot of confusion concerning how it had gotten to this point. After all, I did my best to follow the recommendations given in numerous podcasts, in The Effective Manager book, and countless 'Things I Think I Think' and other such helps from this website but to no avail. Perhaps management is just not for me. As much as I'd like to think that it was, this past 2 years has been stressful, relentless and unrewarding. In this may be the key and perhaps I should have left the company long ago especially considering that the signs were there and were for a very long time. Most attempts at applying the recommendations given by the podcasts and the book were resisted by either my own boss or my co-managers in the organization. I was neither allowed to run staff meetings per the recommendations nor was I allowed to have weekly one on ones using the recommended format, for instance. Peer one on ones with my colleagues were also resisted despite the importance and impact my team had on theirs and the wider organization. The expectations, the workload and the chaos was simply unsustainable or impossible to facilitate delivering effective results without consequence to the operations of the business. After a long series of outages related to infrastructure improvements and/or maintenance-related incidents, per a director friend of mine at the organization, management staff above me were looking for a 'scapegoat' (his word, not mine). And so here I sit today, suddenly without a job (and without an MT license as a result) feeling like a failure as a 'Manager Tools' manager.