BLUF: How do I let go of the resentment of the demotion, be grateful for the job, hate the job less and try to build rapport with this new boss?
Background: I was happily "setting up business" in the first half of 2008. Two job opportunities opened up and I applied for both of them. One was tech support (traditionally a stepping stone to management) and the other was a manager position. The VP I interviewed with turned me down for the tech support position but then offered me the manager job. From October 9 2008 to July 17 2009, I was a manager for this group. Due to a second round of "reduction in force" cuts, I was offered a severance package or a step back to setting up business, an individual contributor role. I took the demotion to keep the paycheck and benefits.
I'm having difficulty on several fronts.
A. I don't like setting up business. It makes me heinously cranky. I get easily irritated and severely frustrated. I much prefer to be a manager - THAT is where I have "the opportunity to do what I do best every day" as they ask us in the Gallup Polls. I'm a much nicer, more calm, professional person when in a managerial role and I don't want to screw myself over with this demotion. I want to nip this in the bud ASAP but I don't know how. With every frustration, I can't help but think "I was SO much happier when I was the manager."
B. This new boss and I don't seem to mesh well together. How do I accept the message "You may not work past 4:30 on any given day without my pre-approval even though it won't result in overtime" without completely shutting down? I just can't help but feel that if I agree to her marching orders blindly, I'd be doing something wrong - morally, ethically, something.
Argh. I know I need to redefine my role (back to individual contributor) and fully accept it. I know I need to forge a working relationship with this VP no matter what position I'm in. I know I need to be the consummate professional despite challenges, obstacles or frustrations. The contributor role makes it exceedingly challenging for me; I do MUCH better in the managerial role. (It's a completely different mindset and I'm much more zen as manager.)
Any help / straight-talk / bitchslaps upside the head / reality checks appreciated. I need to snap out of this and I need ya'll to set me straight before I shoot my career in its foot.