Long term listener here and I would like some advice.
I manage a not for profit organisation and have been in my role for just over 2 years. It’s been a very bumpy ride – managing problems inside and outside of the organisation. Long term low performance culture and team members very reluctant to change. I have fired some of the team members and recruited new people who are performing better.
Most recently a long term member of staff (team leader) hired a new starter who I later found out has a personal relationship with the team leader. The new hire is not working out. The job is very specialist and I had another organisation review some files to check consistency internally. The quality is unacceptably low (despite support from the team leader) and I will have to fire him. Plus we had an external complaint about this person’s service in the community. My team lead has reported to me positive feedback about this person and this is not the substantial evidence I have in front of me via the independent reviewer or from the complaint.
Personally, I’m feeling at an all time low. I feel I’ve failed as a manager and want to leave my job because I feel exhausted, upset and de-motivated. I’m considering talking through my feelings with my boss (who is a volunteer Board member) because I simply feel I cannot carry on in this role. Should I talk to my boss about this?